365 Days of self discovery: Feelings & Emotions

2.10.19

Day 42

Are you often disappointed with life?

  • To be completely honest, yes. I have those days where I wished I didn’t have to work so hard to get where I want to be in life — that maybe if I had it a little easier, it wouldn’t be so bad. I always feel I am 100 steps back whenever I am pushing forward, like the journey has no end or finish line. Except death. I have this thought that I am cursed with bad luck that follows me — probably being a little dramatic but just how I feel about life at times; most days. 
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Success quickly became failure

To start things off, today’s deadlifts I thought were going to go my way, but ends up being I did worse off than I had imagined. I lifted a good lift at 290 & with 305 being my max, I figured lifting 295 afterwards wouldn’t be hard, but boy, I failed that lift 3 times. Not sure why I didn’t get the lift, but it only reached thigh level and the rest of the way, I was weak. I thought to myself, there is no way this is happening — almost like a smack in the face failing like this when your max was 305, and now you are questioning all your training protocols. Maybe it’s the extra cardio I have been doing now 4-5 days a week for about 20-25 minutes, or it could be I haven’t been eating the 5-6 smalls meals like I was or the lack of sleep I have been getting. Worse case scenario, it could be a sign I lost some form of strength — although heavy squats went over well today & that’s what had me most confused, but I will take it as a loss and start back up next week with a clean slate. 

Warm up:

  • Body bar squats: 4 x 25, 3 lbs
  • Hip adduction machine: 4 x 25, 35 lbs
  • Resistance band butt lifts: 4 x 25, red band

Workout:

  • Conventional deadlift: 1 x 290 lbs, Failed attempt at 295 lbs
  • Barbell back squats: 1 x 215 lbs, 1 x 220 lbs

Superset:

  • smith machine rack pulls: 4 x 8-10, 185 lbs
  • Kettlebell stationary lunges: 4 x 8-10, 10 kg

Superset:

  • DB Romanian deadlift: 4 x 8-10, 50 lbs
  • Seated leg extension: 4 x 8-10, 70 lbs

Superset:

  • Wide stance leg press: 4 x 8-10, 100 lbs
  • Seated leg curl: 4 x 8-10, 60 lbs