365 Days of Self Discovery: Your Past

3.30.19

Day 23

Did you ever experience bullying? How did you deal with this?

  • Yes, I experienced bullying on multiple occasions throughout my life. I was bullied in elementary school,  two middle schools and two high schools. It was tough, because I was taught to stick up for myself and not allow people to do harm to me, thankfully, my bullying was all verbal but nonetheless, I never did stick up for myself. Normally, I would ignore it and say nothing, cry when I got home or had alone time, I would allow it to happen and not say anything to adults about it including my own family members. I pretty much did nothing. When I was being bullied by my own family sometimes, I did pretty much the same thing or I would lash out and cry, get mad and say really mean things back, remove myself from the room, etc. 
Have you ever been a victim of bullying? Did you do anything about it, or tell anyone? 
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365 Days of Self Discovery: Feelings & Emotions

2.27.19

Day 59

What Emotion Do You Feel Most Often?

  • Somewhat of a difficult question to answer, but if I was being honest, I would say between frustration/sadness from thoughts of the past or flashbacks while listening to a song, and/or the feeling of being content — but not with life necessarily, just content because nothing is causing me to be extremely happy but at the same time, I am not upset either. My emotions are weird sometimes, especially when I am feeling emotional or in a vulnerable state of mind. 

365 Days of Self Discovery: Feelings & Emotions

1.23.19

Day 24

Do you carry emotional baggage? How can you deal with this?

  • I’d say at one point in my life, I was carrying “emotional baggage” but as of now, I don’t have any. However, I do have times when I am emotional, but wouldn’t necessarily say it is baggage of any sorts. I believe the baggage I once carried hasn’t ceased for good, but doesn’t bother me as much. Not to mention, many things I get emotional over, are brought on by a trigger or flashback or thought and not all of it is a bad thing. 

Are you currently carrying around emotional baggage? if so, how are you dealing with it?  

365 days of self discovery: day 20

What are your weaknesses?

Like I have said before, to know your strengths, means to know your weaknesses, and I assumed that this would be the next question, so I came prepared. 

  • Anxious 
  • blunt
  • emotional
  • intimidating
  • obnoxious – not much anymore like this, more so when I was younger 
  • self critical
  • too thorough
  • un-trusting of others
  • worrier
  • aggressive at times — where I don’t physically lash out at people, but if someone steps on my toes (metaphorically speaking) and possibly literally as well, I feel the need to speak up and let them know, and if it means at the time that I say it with an angry tone, I do it if it gets the point across, but this is rare occasion but doesn’t mean it couldn’t happen. 
  • critical
  • intense
  • reserved
  • too cautious
  • introverted — which plays into some of my communication skills lacking at times

Probably not the easiest thing to list, because you assume everyone will judge you for where you went wrong, but know this, weaknesses can turn into strengths, if you want them to. They don’t always have to stay weaknesses if you find other methods of coping, dealing with situations/people, then it can work for you and not against you. Just like your strengths, I want to know your weaknesses, leave them in the comments. 

Shay-lon

Been Gone for awhile

If any of you follow me on social media, you are probably aware that I had a really downward spire rough week & avoided contact with social media, friends, family, etc. I won’t get into specifics, but I have been gone for quite a while (due to circumstances) happening in my life that came unplanned and unwanted — Today is my first day back on the blog & social media in “full swing” again. The past week or so hasn’t been easy and honestly, it is only because of prayer and having the courage to get back up again when I felt dark that I am even able to write about it. Naturally, sometimes circumstances give you a chance to look at yourself with more clarity and find ways to focus on self healing, self discovery and possibly rely on some form of spiritual sense. Well as cliche as it might sound, that’s exactly what this situation left me to do besides laying in bed all day with no motivation and no drive to talk or be apart of life’s endeavors — I have decided to take on some books that hopefully will be a positive force within my life and future & I have started meditation once more, hopefully sticking with it this time, I am going to take some steps to help myself journal my self discovery and really dive into myself & try to make myself happy with what I plan on doing. It will be some steps and quite the voyage, but I feel it will be worth it. 

I pretty much will be going back to my normal routine but with some added bonuses to my daily lifestyle & my main focus will be building myself emotionally, physically, spiritually and mentally while building my career as a Personal Trainer. I know I have been back and forth with a schedule that works for my readers so that I stay more consistent with blogging & I plan on doing that as well (coming up with a schedule) and now that my mind is less overwhelmed, I will surely do this and let people know what will be happening with the blog(s). I have many topics but I have been working on a personal website for my business, and I plan on blogging there as well, so I want to leave many topics for that particular website when it gets finished up (& yes some topics will be from this blog as well/perhaps with a new frame of mind) I need to find a way to keep myself accountable with the self discovery and meditation — so I may decide to take part in a challenge for a year or use the blog to keep me on the right path (we shall see). I will be using a journal to document my daily thoughts, emotions, the agenda and events — good and bad to keep me aware of myself. Hopefully in the end, this is something that will help to heal and build me with a new form of appreciation for myself. 

I currently downloaded a meditation app that I have been doing for the past 4 days & it has been wonderful; if anyone wants information on it, feel free to ask, maybe we can connect. Outside of that, I will be back on social media tomorrow to reply and show support — I appreciate all of you whom have been nothing but a great positive force within my blog career and life. Much appreciated and looking forward to speaking soon!

P.S I don’t have a consistent plan/routine yet for my self healing or self discovery yet, so if you have nay books, any journals or articles (whatever resource) that you would recommend, feel free to leave it in the comments, as it would bring me great joy to further my research and find a way that works best for me through your help.

Shay-lon 

This is what happens when your football team wins the Superbowl – Vlog #1

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gJKXjEsb14U

Caution this video is of me being very, very excited that my team won the Superbowl!!! – The Patriots!