I Am Only Human

Bound By Flaws.

For a first time in a long time.. 

 

It had occur to me that people see me as this “super human” amazing women who lifts heavy and walks with confidence and seemingly has her life together & everything she does just seems to be #goals (my blog, my workout, my future career, my online presence, physique, etc) & this scares me a little bit, actually a lot of bit. I mean granted I am thankful that I have inspired people, built relationships and rapport with people who now trust me enough to come to me with questions about fitness/health, have had a blog that went from 0 to hero in matter of months and that I tend to make people smile with my random comedic personality BUT what scares me is that people seem to think because of all this I did do, that they think they can’t do it. Like it took some magical pixie dust and oops the store ran out of it, so looks like no one else is capable of doing AMAZING things with their own life. 

 

I hate to give it to you like this.. BUT.. I am only human. That’s right, I came out the vagina the same way you did and I ended up on planet earth just like you. my baby self didn’t have a 6 pack and big arms, I surely wasn’t tying blogs at the age of 2 and I couldn’t have been that famous because I am still broke & I am willing to bet .. no one really even knows me besides family and friends and the people who know of me online. I could lie and say I am a HUGE deal but lets get real, I am not. Do I want to be? YES! because I have a lot to offer in my field and I know I am capable of GREAT things! I believe this. I know how hard I have to work in order to keep my physique in top notch if I want the “deals” and exposure, I know what it takes to keep my blog running smoothly so that all of you keep coming back to pester me about how much you love my stuff (lol)  & I know how much constant research, learning and events it will take for me to build more knowledge so I know what I am talking about and can teach others and spread my knowledge to others who listen to me. My life is not all daisies and wildflowers with tons of sunshine – I have cloudy days. I have periods and bloating that makes me look “gross” , I have struggled with body shaming, I have had the ups and downs of having a nice physique, I have failed in sporting events, I have struggled with my own self confidence and who I am, I have struggled financially, I have lost out on many opportunities (not being good enough), I have days where my abs are no longer there and my arms look like twigs and I am crying trying to pick myself back up. I have had many days where my post suck and I felt like walking away, and for goodness sake .. I know what it is like to have flaws. 

 

The problem is, maybe not all my flaws are seen with the human eye, maybe some of them are seen and you can pinpoint them in less than 5 seconds, but it doesn’t matter because I am no better than anyone else. Being in the fitness field can put a lot of pressure on you to be something like someone else in order to gain a huge following, more “friends”, more money and more fame. I don’t mind the pressure much anymore because I had to stop trying to be like her or him and had to try better at doing what I do best: being me, with flaws and all. I can’t always show my flaws because, hey it is a business, and I have to put on a good face and a good show if I want to keep everyone else around me happy, but when I do, it hits hard — because that is the one time I can let go and just allow myself to cry or get angry. Becoming a trainer isn’t easy either, hell .. you are responsible for someone outside of yourself and being an athlete, well hell you are responsible with being “good” and if not good, then you better be able to handle the harsh criticisms because the world is ready to chew you whole and spit you out. Truth is, during this whole time of learning about myself and wanting to go the distance in everything I do, I have learned I am as strong as I allow but I can’t handle every hurdle and I can’t handle every ball thrown at me.. because like everyone else, I am human and I am going to have days where I fall and getting back up will seem impossible. 

 

Hopefully this post gave people some perspective and understanding. Feel free to leave comments, likes, share it on social media or follow me 🙂 Thank you.

 

Your Fitness Blogger,

 

Shay-lon xxooo

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
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I have some updated news – Feb. 2nd

I realize none of you care about my life and updates but listen anyways. I have some good news to tell all of you and wouldn’t mind your thoughts and insights, and even advice about some of it to make sure I am going about things in a good way. 

 
 
  • I applied to be a sponsored athlete with a supplement company. They are a very small business (still growing their site) and accepted my application. I will get my contract this weekend or week, which is exciting for me. They are not a HUGE name, but sadly, I have to start at the VERY bottom and work my way up until I grow a better resume and better appearance with more exposure and do more activities that BIGGER companies look for. 
  • I am thinking about starting a sound cloud account in which I record motivational topics/give advice to questions people may have or even share some thoughts on certain things going on. I do this kind of on YouTube, but not everyone has a YouTube account or utilizes it, so if someone has sound cloud , or wants something to listen to while at the gym, I figured this could be helpful 🙂
  • I plan on starting a vlog on my YouTube channel, where I vlog at least once or twice a week, just sharing what is going on with my life, family, friends, might bring in guest speakers, etc. just something off the topic of all fitness related so everyone can relate or share their own thoughts and what you, just something fun 🙂
  • I will start utilizing my snapchat and/or instagram video in order to talk to people one on one or promote things, or even to share videos .. – need some ideas of what people use snapchat for and insta for that can help me grow 🙂
  • I already utilize pinterest, so if you do, follow me 🙂 I have good stuff I pin. and love following others and getting ideas.
  • I plan on changing my blog theme here soon, once spring comes closer 🙂
  • I am still accepting guest post and collabs, I have two people I need to get back to and those will be rolling out here soon hopefully &still willing to do guest post for others.
  • I have a facebook fitness page, so follow that , hopefully once things get rolling and I get certified, I will have it more entertaining and worth your while, be patient with me
  • I am thinking about starting a facebook group that anyone can join if they want to do more challenges, motivate each other, etc. – this isn’t set in stone but give your opinions on that, I may do this on my page instead. we shall see
  • I am now writing for another platform (an online mag) started today and it seems to be getting a lot of people who look at it or whatever, so that is good.
  • I hope to change my domain name so that “wordpress” isn’t part of it. My goal is to have it changed within the next 4-5 months .. if not sooner.
  • I may be joining an affiliate program again down the road, once I get more comfortable with it and understand how to do them better. 
  • I am going to continue to make challenges that people can do, as it grows to be more popular and more people become interested, I plan on giving out prizes for them.. so that will be cool! especially if I am a sponsored athlete.  My challenges, I have not decided how often (every other month, every 2 months, etc) so throw me some ideas 🙂
  • I will continue to write for the editor when given the time and have the right topics. 
  • I have seen people using Twitter periscope, so may look into using that as well, if you get on Twitter
  • I will be doing Question and Answers on YouTube as well 🙂 so if you have questions, I will start answering them on YouTube and the questions can be open to whatever, as long as they are appropriate obviously. 
  • If anyone has a podcast and wants me to interview, hey, let me know, I love doing those things.
  • I have skype, and have thought about doing workouts on skype with people or talking to people via skype about different things – this would be down the road, but don’t mind feedback on it. 
  • As far as more on my blog – I have had people ask me to do interviews on my blog, to start talking more about specific workouts again, etc. so if you have topics, let me know 🙂 these are things I can do. 

So far, that is the majority of the news, I will have more down the road obviously as things start to change and unravel. I will always keep everyone updated as much as possible whenever I can. I will hopefully have days and times of which things happen, so it makes it easier for everyone to keep up with. I appreciate the support and willingness to learn and engage with me! so don’t go anywhere, shit is about to real soon 🙂 ha

 

Your Fitness Blogger,

Shay-lon xxx

Being a Champion is what happens when the world isn’t looking

champions

Maybe we don’t own trophies to prove it, but we all are champions. Many of you probably think I am crazy for saying so, because what is a champion, if they haven’t won anything, right? This is true,  I mean normally a champion wins something, but when I talk about the word champion, I don’t mean winning a Gold medal or first place trophy, I mean we all do something that makes us a champion. Some of us may not always be champions, sure we make mistakes, we fuck up, we land flat on our faces sometimes and complain about it. It isn’t the fuck up that we should be judged for, it’s what we do after the fuck up that makes most of us champions, it is what we do when doors are closed and no one is watching, it is the smile you put on someone’s face without trying, it is the dollar you gave without asking them why, it is the drive you make in order to see a loved one, it is the gift you bought while you were struggling, it is the courage you had when the world was against you, it is the change you made to save your marriage, it’s the story you told to spread awareness, it is the life you saved without mentioning, it is the fight you gave during your battle of cancer, it is the tears you cried watching a loved one die, it is the promise you kept when everything fell apart, is the friendship you gave someone, the last dollar in your pocket you spent on someone else, the last goodbye, etc. 

 

See, athletes are used to being champions in front of a large crowd,  I would know, I was an athlete all my life, we are used to being applauded for our wins, our triumphs, our records, our pristine smile in front of cameras. The world calls you a good person, the world thinks of you being a good role model, being a good child, a good sibling, a good parent all BECAUSE you do a good job at your event or sport. God forbid you are a horrible at your event and/or sport, now the world will think of you as a loser, you suck, we don’t care about you, now your smile is meaningless, your parenting skills go unseen and you no longer have their attention. The sad fact is we all want to be validated for something good we have done, we look for someone to tell us “good job”, “you are awesome”, “that was amazing”, “I want to be just like you when I grow up”, etc. because we put on this face in front of people and make people believe that what we do in the light is what we do in the dark.  O.J Simpson is a good example of this, he was an amazing athlete during his time and people loved and adored him, all of a sudden his wife is murdered and he faces trial and no one wants to believe he killed her because he was a “good” person on camera, during games, at practice, at the park with his son, so how could he kill his wife? He was made out to be this teddy bear and lovable person, but what he did behind closed doors, the camera couldn’t see.  He knew what he did behind closed doors and he knew what the public seen of him, he chose to make bad decisions (in my opinion) behind closed doors, therefore he is a fraud; he only made good decisions when he got something out of it. This is no different than talking badly about a friend of yours then going to hang out with this same person after talking bad about him/her; you’re fraud because your actions done in the light don’t match what is done in the dark. 

 

I am not saying we don’t make mistakes, because we do and we all have a past. The difference is some people change in order to do better, and some people stay complacent. The world only sees what we show, what we don’t show is what makes someone a champion if it is the right thing to do. You don’t need lights, camera, action to be a champion, you don’t need a trophy, a medal, a certificate, or tons of friends, all you need is a good heart and good intentions. “What you do in the dark will come to light when you least expect it” -Shay-lon Moss