Forgot to adult for the week..
I think my weekly planner is getting sick of me going off schedule these days, I have a planner I use and lately have barely opened it — hints why I have been behind in blogging and studying; I should always check my planner because honestly. my anxiety starts to kick in when I don’t do things as planned and then have list of task that never got done because I have been fiddle farting around instead of adulting. I could probably complain all day, but it comes down to my time management and all my projects and goals.. I have so many projects and don’t utilize my time well (anymore) — well 2018, don’t give up on me yet… I plan on getting back on track when it comes to priorities and tasks (fingers crossed) .. but I am young, right? so I should be allowed to get off the beaten path every once in awhile without feeling bad.. BUT my personality trait doesn’t allow me to enjoy my youth when I am constantly trying to keep myself on a “perfect” schedule — pretending that it is possible to do so, so I don’t freak out. Thankfully I have friends and family who seemingly understand that I am crazy and my OCD and time management skills fight back & forth which causes the HUGE debate in my head as to what to get started on first. Externally I am smiling until I get home and break down.. but that’s a whole new story for a different day. Back to what is scheduled. My workouts. & if I am lucky I might be able to squeeze in some studying before work tonight. Hmm. Wish me luck.
Oh & the next blog post will begin my workout sessions….
Bringing back the mental health topics for today and the one we will be speaking of is: OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder). I, myself have a form of OCD which can be bad depending on what it is, but normally is minor. Actually overtime, my OCD has gotten to a point where it hasn’t been as relevant in my life. I guess the things that used to bother me, I can now overlook the majority of the time. I don’t think I know anyone with a severe form of OCD, but when watching a television show on MTV that used to come on (“true life”) or something like that, they had an episode telling of people who have OCD and how they live their everyday lives and the people with the more severe forms had a fairly difficult time sometimes (with work, relationships, etc) so I could not imagine going through that everyday, but I do know what it is like when other people don’t necessarily understand your OCD and give you hell for it. My mom is OCD and a perfectionist about the majority of things, so I think mine stemmed from that, but overtime, I did notice she hasn’t been as OCD like she used to be (I was annoyed as a kid), because I didn’t understand it at the time. I swear I just thought she was bat shit crazy, but come to find out.. she just had OCD and was a perfectionist about shit. Now I understand because I am the same way sometimes about certain things. At work, when I am being OCD about something, my coworkers just don’t always understand & it can annoy them sometimes, but they don’t give me too much slack about it, thankfully. Anyways, I thought I would share some information about this disorder.
What does it mean to have OCD:
To have a common, chronic and long lasting disorder, in which the person has uncontrollable, reoccuring thoughts and behaviors that he or she feels the urge to repeat over and over again.
Obsessions: Repeated thoughts, urges, or mental images that cause anxiety, symptoms:
- Fear of germs or contamination
- Unwanted forbidden or taboo thoughts involving sex, religion, and harm
- Aggressive thoughts towards others or self
- Having things symmetrical or in perfect order
Compulsions: Repetitive behaviors that a person with OCD feels the urge to do in response to an obsessive thought. Compulsions:
- Excessive cleaning or hand washing
- Ordering and arranging things in a particular, precise way
- Repeatedly checking on things
- Compulsive counting
NOT ALL RITUALS OR HABITS ARE CONSIDERED COMPULSIONS!
- Can’t control his or her behaviors, or thoughts
- can spend 1 hour a day on these thoughts or behaviors
- Doesn’t get pleasure when performing the thoughts or behaviors, but could feel a brief relief from the anxiety the thoughts cause
- Can experience significant problems in their daily life due to these thoughts or behaviors
Some people with OCD also have a tic disorder as well.
- Brain structure and functioning
- Environment (those who have experienced physical or sexual abuse have a higher risk of OCD)
- Deep brain stimulation
If you would like more information about this disorder, please refer to this site: https://iocdf.org/about-ocd/. Also keep in mind not everyone knows they have OCD, most adults and/or children are not aware that they have the disorder.