365 Days of Self Discovery: Day 8

9.10.18

What do you worry about?

What a question for the kind of day I’ve had — having my IG hacked, for one that is a starter to my worries, but if we were to put that aside, my worry is for my future — my business/career, not knowing how my life will pan out, not knowing if I will be in a “happy place”, not knowing if I will be prosperous in all aspects of my life or will I be in the same situation I am now; feeling complacent. I like planning for my future (creating long term goals) but sometimes I feel like they take so much time to conquer and I second guess if I will ever make it out of this mundane lifestyle and into what I yearn for / what my heart desires. I am 26 right now and that means I am closer to 30, I’d like to be so much further in my life by the time I hit 30, I don’t want to live with this thought of not making it further in life than where I am currently. I get comfortable and then it gets hard to change, but I need change because if I don’t change, then I will be stuck being mentally drained from feeling worthless. I have smaller day to day worries as well; paying bills, working two jobs, is my mental state okay, will I be able to blog on this and that day, my body image being “good enough” , possible car problems arising, how to spread my time so I am able to spend more time with loved ones when possible, making sure I focus on my well-being and trying to keep my head above water when I feel anxiety or overwhelmed. These worries continue because of my anxiety and feeling as though I can’t sometimes take hold of my life the way I want to, it’s like I do well and then at some point I hit a brick wall & it stops me in my tracks. Its tough because many times I wish I didn’t care about so much, then I wouldn’t have to worry so much. 

What kind of things do you worry about? EVERYONE worries about something at some point in their lives; so what is something that has been on your worry list. Feel free to share in the comment section, and don’t forget to follow, share and like the page! 

Shay-lon

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Sometimes I feel like I am drowning —

Hey everyone 🙂

With as busy as I have been, I know I haven’t been consistent with my post like I was in the past and that is because I am building a new website for my personal training business I want to do & I have been traveling and out of town a whole lot more since it is the summer. 

Not to mention, I want to start up a new podcast for my business but it will be fun and lot more laid back — but coming up with a title has been grueling, so hopefully within the month that will be a  finished product. I have had a lot on my plate with this new business venture I am taking and being sponsored by two companies and having an online presence on IG, FB and Twitter, etc has been taking a toll sometimes — it can be quite overwhelming and I am always on the go, go, go. There is hardly enough time for me to just do me *hints why I am usually gone for a long period of time from this blog*. I ma not trying to avoid any of you or make excuses for my absence but at times I need that breath of fresh air & not always will I post it. 

With all of this being said, I have yet to sit down and come up with a new schedule for this blog and my LGBTQ blog — so be patient with me, but do know I will  and when I do, I will let all of you know, because I know many of you like routine and enjoyed my older days when I was posting more often and with new, fun and exciting things that led you to my blog in the first place. Nothing comes easy when you have a lot on your plate on and offline — so this might be something that ends up being trial and error until I get it right. Once upon a time, I was keeping track of all my milestones when it came to followers on this blog, but since slowing down and realizing I am not dedicating the same amount of time I once was to this blog I found there was no point in doing all of that when my stats reflect my failure to commit to consistency; maybe in the future I will have new milestones I can reflect on and share but for now don’t expect anything HUGE until I have been a more regular blogger again. I am not giving up blogging or letting go of this blog or any of the other blogs I do, they are all successful blogs that I will make into a side profession, but the amount of time I am dedicating to them will be hindered quite a bit for sometime until I can get more things off my plate and have a balance — especially since I am making a website, that will need my full attention as well. I was always told to not break off more than I can chew (I suppose that is too late, considering circumstances) but I can still find ways to manage my blogs without them becoming a chore ( I don’t like chores) LOL.

In the meantime, once my website is up and running — it won’t be perfect of course because I still have to take proper steps in having it look more professional and what not, but for now I just want it up and running with new post/and possibly content and maybe features.. we shall see (one step at a time) and once my podcast is created and running — I will reveal that information as well, along with any other projects I am working on that would be relevant for all of my readers. 

I do want to say THANK YOU, because most of you continue to keep up with my blog post, and comment and still find time to make time for my writings without complaints. I may not be as good as I once was with keeping up with your blogs, but I do appreciate the time you have taken to subscribe to my blog, follow my blog, read and share it. I know being a blogger was not meant to be easy for everyone depending on your goals, and I chose to take the long road with the most reward BUT my blog wouldn’t be as valuable or or hold a purpose without ALL OF YOU BEING APART OF IT 🙂 Thank you for all your continued support. #CHEERS 

Shay-lon

P.S when I compete in my first powerlifting meet, I will also be sharing this with all of you ! 

 

I’ve done it again..

Forgot to adult for the week.. 

I think my weekly planner is getting sick of me going off schedule these days, I have a planner I use and lately have barely opened it — hints why I have been behind in blogging and studying; I should always check my planner because honestly. my anxiety starts to kick in when I don’t do things as planned and then have list of task that never got done because I have been fiddle farting around instead of adulting. I could probably complain all day, but it comes down to my time management and all my projects and goals.. I have so many projects and don’t utilize my time well (anymore) — well 2018, don’t give up on me yet… I plan on getting back on track when it comes to priorities and tasks (fingers crossed) .. but I am young, right? so I should be allowed to get off the beaten path every once in awhile without feeling bad.. BUT my personality trait doesn’t allow me to enjoy my youth when I am constantly trying to keep myself on a “perfect” schedule — pretending that it is possible to do so, so I don’t freak out. Thankfully I have friends and family who seemingly understand that I am crazy and my OCD and time management skills fight back & forth which causes the HUGE debate in my head as to what to get started on first. Externally I am smiling until I get home and break down.. but that’s a whole new story for a different day. Back to what is scheduled. My workouts. & if I am lucky I might be able to squeeze in some studying before work tonight. Hmm. Wish me luck. 

 

Oh & the next blog post will begin my workout sessions…. 

 
 

Shay-lon 

Bonus Video – YouTube is not TOP priority for me

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t18ECXoIDnw

In this video, I explain some changes and discuss how YouTube is not TOP priority in my life because I have other obligations and expectations that I want to fulfill in my life at the moment that are more important. I created this video in hopes it would explain what to expect from me and how I plan on going about things from this day forward so no one feels abandoned. 

Monday Motivation YouTube Video: Nov. 28th

Too many of this, can create a whole lot of this.. 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sIooatdPbW8

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