How do you feel about others seeing your body? For example, at the beach?
- My only issue with exposing my body is the initial response of having to undress into my bikini (taking off the clothes that hide my bikini) but once I have fully revealed myself to the public within seconds, my main focus changes from worrying what others think to worrying about how cold the water is, LOL. It does take me awhile (a lot of contemplating) to even get to the point where I am in my bikini, many times it takes someone else to urge me to get into the water before I even consider it. The only other time this would bother me is if I notice someone staring or watching me the whole time, it gives me anxiety and makes me feel uncomfortable ( I know people will glance ) but I don’t like when people stare. Many people see me as someone in great shape but I don’t always see that through my eyes and it makes me more self conscious.
Do you think people look up to you?
- Ya know, I am bittersweet about this question. On one hand, I have had people say they look up to me and it feels good, because I feel that is always a positive thing; especially when you want people to see the positive you put out there but on the other hand, I don’t want people looking up to me because I want people to be their own role model and have their own thoughts, voice their own opinions and do things that make them happy. I know when I think of people I look up to, it is based on what they do or have done to make a difference in my life or have changed the world for the better or strive to do so — and it makes me want to follow in their footsteps but put my own stamp on it. Nowadays when people think of role models, it seems they are more concerned with how someone looks physically or the amount of money they have or the lifestyle they live instead of the qualities the person has. I hope my youngest brother looks up to me in a sense that he sees my strengths and how I handle my weaknesses in order to overcome obstacles — but I hope he grows into his own person and follows his dreams fully. It seems like more people on social media look up to me (IG) vs people in my life and I want it to be the other way around, I want more people to find me inspiring in my life than I do when it comes to social media — because social media is not always a reflection of who someone is, many times it is someone portraying themselves as someone else or pretending to have things they can’t afford in order to fit in or be liked among the majority. While I always come as myself on social media, I am also a private person, so not everything in my life is exposed for the world to see and I like it like that (good or bad).
If I inspire someone, I want it to be meaningful and purposeful.
Are you easily influenced by others?
Do you care what others think of you?
- Yes, way too often. I want to get to the point in my life when I can honestly say “I don’t care what others may think of me”
How comfortable are you meeting new people?
- Honestly, I enjoy meeting new people but due to my social anxiety it is difficult for me to go out of my way to meet new people on my own (but it has gotten a tad bit better over the years). I noticed when someone else introduces me to somebody new, I handle it fine pending the vibes I get from the person – I go off people’s body language, their character, how they speak, carry themselves and how they perceive me as well because those all play a role in how comfortable I am around this person.
Who do you love unconditionally?
- My family members (mom, siblings, grandparents, etc)
- God, my faith and father
- close friends
- the majority of people who have entered my life at some point and impacted it in a positive way or helped to guide me towards success
Do you feel you have the support of friends & family?
- For the most part, yes. Although I don’t share everything with my friends and family in order to receive support unless I find it necessary to do so. Most of the time, when I do announce something I feel worthy of conversation or feedback, I don’t think most people care either way and leave it with “as long as you’re happy” – which isn’t bad, but it lacks any type of realness to it & I have always felt for a long time that most people don’t care unless it pertains to them or their life. While I do sometimes find it easier to say “as long as your happy”; I can admittedly say its my go-to when I don’t care enough about the topic or I don’t want to share my opinion in fear it might do more damage than help. I don’t think I have had very many people in my life show a true interest in something that was important to me.