This week we answer the question: What has been our biggest accomplishment in our personal journey?
I remember sharing with all of you that I wanted to start a podcast using sound cloud months ago and well finally I had the chance to do it and today was the second podcast and first topic. For those of you who will be interested in my podcast, I want to give you the inside scoop on what to expect on it so nothing comes as a surprise.
- Fitness Advice/Tips
- Life – general things
- relationships – the good and bad
- gay community (discussing my sexuality and other topics surrounding it)
- Q & A – question and answer
- Current events
Then if this should grow, I will expand on the podcast and introduce more things that might become of interest to others. I will have a schedule on which days I discuss what and will reveal that schedule within the next couple of days hopefully because I want it to be organized and it will allow you to tune in to whatever you have interest in. I have been wanting to start a second YouTube channel to put the audio on, but I am having issues with that at the moment so maybe down the road, I can find a way to add them to a YouTube channel; for now I will share on my blog and other social media outlets. I appreciate all of you for your patience and support.
I will be starting a second blog that is NOT fitness/health related at some point and will also share that URL with you when it is up and running. I will continue to keep this blog regardless of starting a new one and will continue to post on this blog.
My YouTube video today will talk about my eating habits, workouts (Fri-Sun) and what is going on in my life (thoughts, feelings, anxieties, etc). Feel free to follow, subscribe to the YouTube channel, share, comment.
I wanted to catch everyone up on why I haven’t been active on social media and my blog page as well.. and what is to come.
Firstly, I want to say thank you to all of those who have left comments on my latest YouTube video and my blog post while I have been MIA – it truly means the world to me and while I did not respond to any of them, I did read them.. and it made me thankful that many of you were being as supportive as possible.
Secondly, I apologize that all my viewers and blog friends and followers have not seen much of me on social media (including this blog) and I know it sucks because I have so much to write about and all you flock to my page to get the next big thing I have written; waiting patiently and none of you were prepared for this disappeared kind of moment. This was not fair to any of you – but I had to do what I had to do if it meant staying away for a while.
Thirdly, for those of you who aren’t caught up or new to the blog, this week has been full of emotional lows for me, I have been in rage, sad, frustrated, confused, and withdrew from close friends and family – for reasons I will not discuss on this blog or social media.. some may have guessed it or might have a clue as to why but I will not confirm those reasons for privacy reasons. I have a personal life that isn’t always something I want to discuss online. It has been very difficult for me, I haven’t been to the gym all week, I left the gym on Tuesday in tears and anger that I could not manage to go back all this week, I haven’t been eating much at all and my selections have not been healthiest at all – in all honesty I have been falling apart all week. The first to go was my mind, I lost it.. I was in my room crying most days and throwing shit other days of the week and all in all I missed out on tons of sleep to the point of not being able to function correctly. It wasn’t until partly yesterday I was slowly showing people support on Instagram again and trying to manage my emotions all at once.. it has been difficult but in the end.. we all have shitty days, right?
Fourthly, I will try to create a video Monday for all of you to get some updates.. and if I don’t you will have to excuse me because I still look horrible and although emotionally I feel like I am healing somewhat, I am not 100 percent yet. Not even close to it. I will continue to blog (starting today) and have even made it a point to start some new projects during this week of emotional rollercoasters.
Fifthly, I have given thought on starting a second blog that has nothing to do with fitness at all. It is a totally different spectrum and I will be honest, not sure what will come of it if I decide to do it but I feel like it could be a good thing for others as well as myself. I will continue this fitness blog – no worries, this is my FIRST love and my career and life, so this won’t be going away. Along with a new blog page means I will probably be creating a new facebook page dedicated to it, but that is all something I will start at later dates, I am taking this a day at a time. So be patient with me.
Lastly, I have decided to share a simple poem with all of you I created within minutes of writing this post, hopefully all of you will enjoy it. I will be working on myself day my day because I want to make the most of my life with someone I adore and love and I want to better myself in all aspects of life and I want to blossom into something that I know I am capable of! All of your emails, comments, and social media messages have been read and I am in so much ‘ahh’ at all how many of you were by my side during this time, I am blessed beyond belief to have an online family who stands by my corner but I also want to thank all my close friends and family for keeping me on the up and up even when I was falling into pieces in front of you, you are my heros and I love you!
I fell on my face, nothing could pick me back up
for all this time, I thought I wasn’t enough
sometimes the mental pain drains me, and my body hates me,
the insanity that takes over me – has me going crazy
the smile on my face gave me such distaste, pretending to be happy
in order to survive this phase.
It takes strength to grow but I didn’t know it would take so much pain
for every flower around me withered at my downward spiral that I gained
You won’t understand my story, it has no end but many beginnings
You won’t understand my words, they are spoken while drinking henny,,
You won’t understand me, because I am everything in between..
This poem is only a small dose of me.
-Shay-lon Moss (this poem was created by me and copyrighted)
Thanks for reading,
Alright lovely blogger friends,
I am going to be gone all weekend, so I might be back Sunday night or Monday Morning, just saying that I won’t be blogging this weekend (which is technically normal) and I apologize I have been away for three days. I have tons of packing to do tonight because I am leaving tomorrow morning after work. I am going to post my workouts I did this week and will try to make time for another post ..but don’t hold me to it, as I have tons to finish around the house before I leave. Hopefully this coming week, I will have more fun fitness/health topics and workouts as well for all of you. With this all being said, I hope all of you have a wonderful weekend and i will see you soon! ❤
Keep up with my Instagram – you might see some new pictures during my vacation or videos 😀
P.S.S if you are a blogger who follows me on Instagram and I just don’t know it and haven’t followed you back , let me know —- just saying! sometimes I miss people or don’t know. Also, be on the lookout for a possible new YouTube video tonight as well! wo
I made it to my goal of 900 followers (technically yesterday) but, I am in such a good mood over this! Not because it means I have more followers, but it means I met 100 more people this month, I talked to a possible 100 more people, read 100 more blogs, possibly maybe even learned 100 more things from all of you. Having followers is like every bloggers dream, but having followers who later on become friends, become your coffee and conversation partner, or people you can rely on to make your day – that my good sir is hard to come by. It occur to me today that someone had a made a comment on my YouTube channel telling me how they not only like my videos but they like the fact I respond to everyone’s comments – that is their favorite thing about me. Reading that, really made me smile, because I am not sure if you know this, but I make it my mission to ALWAYS respond to people on any of my social media mediums (this is why I am on so many).
You see, I don’t think some of you realize that a response to someone is a million times better than following someone (in my opinion) because when you respond, you are showing you read it, you understood it, and you are interested in speaking with that particular person. When people follow me, I hope they follow me because they enjoy my engagement, I hope they follow me because they are eager to know more and I hope they follow me because they feel comfortable on my page or whatever medium they follow me on. I don’t want someone to follow me and then never talk to me, I want to talk to each of you, and it doesn’t have to be about fitness/health, it can be about your day, your hobbies, your family.. those conversations are meaningful to me.
I strive to make good content, yes. BUT I also strive to make good conversation, to show my interest in your blog or videos, to show interest in your life because I want to engage, I want to know your opinions or thoughts. You’re not just a follower or subscriber, when you talk to me, you have begun a deeper journey, a journey that I hope never ends. xo
Thank you for being there for me, and supporting me! Cheers.
New goal: 1000 followers.
Your Fitness Blogger,