How do you feel about others seeing your body? For example, at the beach?
- My only issue with exposing my body is the initial response of having to undress into my bikini (taking off the clothes that hide my bikini) but once I have fully revealed myself to the public within seconds, my main focus changes from worrying what others think to worrying about how cold the water is, LOL. It does take me awhile (a lot of contemplating) to even get to the point where I am in my bikini, many times it takes someone else to urge me to get into the water before I even consider it. The only other time this would bother me is if I notice someone staring or watching me the whole time, it gives me anxiety and makes me feel uncomfortable ( I know people will glance ) but I don’t like when people stare. Many people see me as someone in great shape but I don’t always see that through my eyes and it makes me more self conscious.
Well, Friday was my birthday and Saturday I had my first fitness photoshoot. It was fun and a great experience that scared the hell out of me but I did it and I will continue to do it now going forward. I made a short post about my experiences and learning to pose, etc find out here what I had to say about the photoshoot.
What is one thing you would change about your childhood?
- I would have chosen to stick up for myself when being bullied, instead of allowing people do so and think that is okay, or ignoring it because then it might not have happened as often.
Now we are getting into a different section of the self discovery and I realize some people may not be comfortable talking about their past or sharing certain aspects, so if you don’t, don’t feel pressured into answering any of these questions online, instead, write them down for only your eyes to read. I do believe however you choose to answer, might be helpful in developing yourself and learning more about yourself. As for me, if any of the questions get particularly hard for me to answer, I write them down as I always do, but I will also post something to let ya’ll know that the question is particularly more private — I know I want to share aspects of me with me and you, but somethings are not always for the lookers — and I won’t force myself to share everything about me if I don’t feel the need to. Thank you for the continued support.
Do you ever feel inferior, why is this?
- Eh, sometimes when I find myself comparing myself to others or when I am dating someone whom I believe to be out of my league. I suppose it is a self worth issue, but something I work on, but I will say, when it comes to everyday common people and what they have vs what I have materialistically, I don’t pay much attention to.